| havent written any blog for ages not even logging in xanga. Since my exams and papers are over back in early Jan, it's like my soul is gone with them. I cant hear my heart, my mind and my body. I am trying to save myself by writing this blog to gather my thoughts back. Hope it works. Things are getting worse. There is no single day I am looking forward to except the payday. Am I going to save my wealth bit by bit like this every month? Seems like i can never get what i need and what i want in this case. My guy friends try to cheer me up by saying this, 'Girls are luckier than guys. At least girls could marry a rich guy in order to anjoy luxuary life but guys always need to earn the money themselves.' and my response is, 'yah but there is only one Tsui Tse Kei in the world.' Not until recently i realize should have grown up. I am not young anymore. Or I should say i had procceed to another stage of life already - the workforce. However, i am so not ready for it! Whenever people asked if i am a student, I would answer 'YES'! yah thats my problem. Maybe its because i am really a student in fact, errrr but a part time one.  I am giving myself some time to adapt to this WORKING role. Over the past year, i didnt really concentrate on my job. Maybe it's because of the job nature, or it's myself who is not ready to be at work.
I read a column in a magazine and it is talking about the things a lady over age 25 needs to take care of. They mention there are a lot of pysiological, hormonal and psychological changes in a lady approaching 25. This really horrifies me. I am just so not ready to get mature, not even annaul birthday can give me this feeling. Kidda miss school. Anyways, it's going to restart next week~ and result will be out soon too. I am getting nervous about the result. I know my paper and exams are not perfect but I believe this is the best I could do, with the time and energy I had. I wanna highlight one thing: Classmates are great!
Although I cant find good friends like kiki and kaka in school now, they are supportive and caring. I feel so melt when i got e-xmas cards and wishes of good luck in exams from them. Whenever I need help, they will be glad to help. When I miss the class, they would keep the notes for me. I remembered once we all went to yum cha with a prof for lunch, and we ended up having lunch for 2.5 hours!!! hahaha yah we intended to ton pok. |
